I wonder if I'll ever become numb. Numb from the feeling of leaving people or having people leave me. And I wonder will that be a good thing or a bad thing.

If only tonight I was some young teenage punk full of angst. Maybe that'd give me an excuse to act out my unhappiness and relieve myself of these thoughts that are going through my mind. But then the person you all know wouldn't do tat now would I? Maybe if I was a kid again. I might.. just like when I wanted smth and my parents didn't want to get it for me. But no. I can't bring myself to do that.

It's a drain. I already feel drained. But when will this feeling stop? I wonder.


Lord, help me. Only you hold the answer.





It's times like these when my face tells it all.
And it's better that you don't even see it.

It's too hard to keep it in.
It's too hard to let out.
My heart tries to scream.
But muffled cries will suffice.

Tell me this isn't permanent.
Tell me this is just a phase.
Tell me life will get better.
Tell me God will show His grace.

It's times like these when my face tells it all.
And only God will be able to see it.

- Getassha Lee (2343, 190406)

Tash @ 11:45 PM