It's pure madness thinking about the amt of work I have to do and the amt of things I have to read. Maybe it really isn't that much and I'm just making myself stressed. Maybe it really is that much and plus me pushing myself harder makes it seem worse. I think I'm going crazy thinking of work.. sigh.. that's y I haven touched my books since I came back today. But 2ml is all work and no play but with a bit of rest. Quiz on thurs, no playing around. Everything seems so alien to me, I don't understand a single thing and I only do after reading it like 3-4 times over. Tell me how am I going to finish everything at this rate? Sigh..
Lord, please help me. I've never felt this stressed and disappointed with myself. Maybe I'm pushing myself too hard, maybe it really isn't tat bad. But pls help me survive this sem with the grades I need and want. I know you'll give me the strength I need. Thank you thank you Lord. I could never thank you enough..
I feel so out of touch with everyone cos I haven't been toking to ppl online much. I haven't spoken to
Tanyaling in ages. Neither have I with
Tina Teo. How are you 2 dears doing? In fact, how
is everyone else doing?
You know they say the distance doesn't matter if your heart and minds are joint. Well it does. It sucks not being able to just drop an sms or make a call w/o having to worry about the cost of it. I think coming here has made me start to plan a lot.. how much money i can spend.. how much time i can spend on a certain thing.. wat i have to do over thenext few days.. everything must go to plan. Or has tat always been a trait of mine..? haha
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Ok tat was written this evening at 8 plus and I didn't get round to finishing it cos I ended up watching OC and CSI on TV. haha and I just got off the fone with my boi :) All's good albeit the tough time we're both going thru. But we'll survive with God's help.
I tink it's a gd ting too tat we're apart.. no doubt it's a test but we can learn to depend more on God than each other, which is wat the r/s shd be. Tough but we're trying and learning and growing stronger.
I miss poly days where I had ppl to slack with, go out just because we felt like it, skip lectures cos we weren't feeling up to it tat day. Now I spend all my breaks in the school library doing my work or reading wat I need to read (I can never seem to finish!!). And sometime when I'm not in the mood for work, I whip out my current hot and delicious book
The Zahir and inspire myself with beautiful words with Paulo Coelho. But you noe smth? I think I'm beginning to really enjoy this alone time. Now I understand why
Ame likes to spend so much time in the library too :p It's actually kinda therapeutic cos I spend time with myself doin meaningful stuff. Though if it were to be at the beach that would be excellent! haha
Ok and as you know, the Oscars were yesterday!! So of cos here's pics of some of the dresses I liked :) Jessica Alba is my no.1 man.. haha
2006 Oscars Red Carpet
1.Keira Knightley 2.Jennifer Garner 3.Samantha Harris(No idea who she is)4.Karolina Kurkova(Another unknown) 5&6.Nicole Kidman 7&8.Jessica Alba (She looks damn good!)
2006 Vanity Fair Oscar Party and Elton John Oscar Party
1. Michelle Rodriguez!! <3 2.Maggie Grace (I don't know who she is) 3.Helena Christensen 4.Jennifer Aniston 5.Lindsay Lohan 6&7.Heidi Klum
Cash Warren & Jessica Alba @ the Governor's Post-Show Ball. How cute are they?!?You know.. it's good to know I have friends who haven't forgotten about me and still bother to tell me tat I'm invited to smth even though they know I can't attend. I know it's silly. But at least I know they do bother. :)
Thanks
bro, you get well soon yah den can enjoy your partay! ;) Rest more and will be praying for you! Remember God can do the impossible! Nothing is too big for Him, just ask to be able to play soccer again! heh.
Ameliaoaoao if I could I would fly back to attend this once in a lifetime thing man. But know tat I'm with you in spirit! :) Have fun (and stress) preparing for it yah. I'm sure it's all worth it :)
Okie ppl.. time for me to go rest. 2ml is study day. But this half day of self-declared rest was good :) And if you see me online, do msg me and let me know how you're doing. Toodles!
