Yes.. I'm still online at this insane time. Can't slp.
I was looking thru all the photos that i have on my com.. feeling nostalgic.. i miss the fun times we had.. looking forward to more hopefully. Now that everyone is looking for jobs, getting jobs, starting work.. etc.. still haven found my part time job for extra cash and juz to while my time away.
3 mths can seem like a long time more.. but it will also fly pass us really fast.. and den i'll be gone. I am so gona miss ppl here... sigh.. especially those who have been wif me this 1/3 of the yr and my wonderful TEAZ who i may not have seen so often..
With all the crap and craziness I've gone thru just these few mths, i've grown so much closer to ppl i've been close wif and gotten to noe a few more gd buddies i will treasure for life. It's unthinkable for me to be leaving all my friends behind.. but i guess what has to be done, has to be done. I need to study and I want to.
After all these, I'm not gona look back and regret about anything that i've done. In fact i've learnt so much about myself and ppl tat i wouldn't want to change a single thing that happened so far this yr because it's taught me so much. Sometimes things happen in life which disappoint you, but i guess you gota learn that life is not always a bed of roses. There's always the stalks with thorns that may prick you and shake you up but you gota learn how deal with each prick you may get.
I feel like i have been ALMOST brutally honest about my feelings because of the situations i've been put in and situations i've seen my gd friends in. Hence the emergence of my "alter ego". It can be a gd ting, but it can also be a bad ting. But i tink i gota learn to be more tolerant and tame this tongue of mine again. It's gona be hard, but I'll do it with God's help just like last time.
It's hard to imagine that once the video is out of the way, I wouldn't have to go back to school anymore for no gd reason. I would have finally really completed my 3yrs of school in TP.
Although i don't want this chapter of my life to close, it has to and i'm waiting to see what happens in the next chapter. I don't know what my future holds. Only God knows and i have to trust that He will make everything right in His time.
Alrite.. Off i go.. Nite.
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Let Me Go - 3 Doors Down
One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
Chorus:
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go
I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
Chorus
And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I know
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows
Chorus
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me
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The Real Life - 3 Doors Down
I wanted to find somewhere to hide
And I opened up and left those fears inside
And I wanted to be anyone else
Only to find that there was noone there but me
Chorus:
But I woke up to real life
And I realised its not worth running from anymore
When there was nowhere left to hide I found out
That nothings real here but I wont stop now until I find a better part of me
I let those hard days get me down
And all the things I hate got in my way
I could of screamed without a sound
I found myself silenced by those things they say
Chorus
Thats out there somewhere
And it cant be that far away
Thats where ill find myself
And ill find my way out
Thats where ill find out
Chorus
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